<..: Retreat II :..>

what have I been doing this year end holiday? I live the life of a tai-tai. wake up late...watch oprah...sleep...watch oprah again...and then sit in front of the black box till 630pm and await the return of my hubby before heading for dinner or just slouch at home again in front of the tv...life is pure bliss... I am gonna miss this kind of life...the new year is approaching and I am just starting to enjoy my days...

well anyway...two more days before the hustle and the bustle starts again...more bitching and more heartbreaks...and I am damn sure my blood pressure will shoot up rocket high again...

yesterday, two important things ...

for two and a half days...I have been worrying so so much till my head spins like a top about my grade for my UNISIM...Yi Hui called me on the afternoon of wed...and told me her results are out...I pestered Najib to check the mail ...no mail...on thursday...I went down so many times to check the mail...still no mail...the portal... also no results yet... ok at this moment I am on panic mode liao. How come everyone got it? Did I fail? My dear hubby comforted me, " Yang...I know you have been putting effort...tak pe lah...dah 7 tahun u tak ambil exam...tapi don't worry u'll get thru! I tahu u work hard through the nites...u'll breeze thru k!" Very comforting indeed...truthfully my fear subsided and turned into anxiousness... It's my first exam after so long... I don't whether I am still apt for studies...I really do want to hold an ijazah in my hands... I truly do... Insya ALLAH...I'll get this through... By the way...I passed, did ok considering I have not written English essays for donkey years now... :) I am so elated...ok now I can celebrate...the first hurdle is behind me ...now for the next one...

By the way....yesterday I realised, my school is not supportive of people continuing their studies... I don't understand why... we are in the education system and yet we r not supported... I don't understand why. Enough said...by the way...whatever MN said yesterday..was like passing wind ...thru my bladder....I am guilt free!

got my timetable yesterday too...the year end meeting is a real torture...my colleagues will second me on this...we come at 9am...hearing all this crap...and what are we waiting for actually? just a piece of paper to determine our life for the whole of next year....when I was new to the profession... I looked forward to it with pure anxiousness... but after two years of being 'dumped' with lessons just to fill the quota(that's what they say), I am resigned... whatever I got, I am ok with it...how bad can it be? I got one of the worst for the last few years...so how can bad can it be right? unless they want me to teach Tamil or Chinese....then it's 999. Finally, now I am not the 'extra' one who has to do all the shit. I smiled when I got my timetable...although I will be teaching till 330pm on thursdays but...I am ok ...seriously! So for the benefit of the curious ones....
jeng
jeng
jeng

I will be in the morning...this will be my last year in the morning....I am kind of tired of handling the morning crowd...not you , kids!
I will be teaching P4s...yeah Siti's baobeis! She told me everyone has their own sob stories...so just hold on for more... the P5s...with HML...and finally my expert area....well I developed that...I am a specialist in Basic ML...basic ML pun Basic ML lah....at least I will have fun....apa lagi ....more outdoors and singing...and Amazing Races!

I look forward to my lessons next year...very much so I am going to start preparing after the new year.... I do want to enjoy what's left of my holidays! Next year, I will not provide an excuse for anyone to pin me down....I am going to be diligent and give my ultimate utmost in my teaching and also in my life.... do doakan for me aye!

Insya ALLAH...petang-petang Raya Haji nih... my wishes will be granted...

Saturday, December 30, 2006