Tuesday, July 31, 2007
some people just can't get it into their head that...
some secrets are just not something to be shared. It's funny to see a 30 year old announce to everyone a secret that we have time and again reminded them to shut up. There are 2 reasons why some people share their secrets.
1) People just want to share the happy news.
2) People are forced to share their secret.
FYI, it was the no. 2 reason that forced me into that direction. Now because of her big humongous mouth, many people are beginning to hear a secret that only me and a few of my friends have shared in absolute privilege.
Today, I was also pissed off with many heads. Leaders with no brains and sensitivity. What more can I say? Just because ur a head doesn't mean u're the knowledgeable one. Stop showing off ah. Eat the humble pie and admit your mistakes when you make one. No1 is perfect.
Be more like a colleague of mine, Just got to know she is actually more knowledgeable and learned than that I thought she is. She just does her work with such humility that I only got to know her more closely today when I did my duty with her. Such a nice, pretty lady with a brain to match unlike some who has no looks but with a BIG MOUTH and AIRHEAD to match!
*sighs* It must either be the dust from the construction site or the erratic weather that has been clouding my temperament these days. Whatever it is, who cares? It's just me.
Monday, July 30, 2007
been feeling so lethargic these days...
I also have this can't be bothered attitude at this moment. Like I have mentioned before, it's all about me at this moment.
ok some pics to upload... 
first stop is the Malay Heritage Centre visit...
had great fun and lots to learn from.
next is the Racial Harmony Day.
my kidz...wat more can I say...
most of them decked to the nines...
siapa bilang gadis melayu tak menawan
si bujang tak kacak...
memang mata potek!
the last one is my pride n joy....
YES! u've guessed it!
terrer kan!
Monday, July 16, 2007
I am on MC today...I bet many parents have been grumbling over my frequent 'disappearance' from classes but come to think of it, I can't be bothered about it. I do feel guilty towards my children, I miss them but what to do...if my health doesn't permit me to be around, I have to think about myself too. I am not a robot, neither am I am a slave to others. I have my own life to lead and my life doesn't revolve around the career all the time. I need to think for myself before I can think for others. Anyway what good can come out from people whom you showered love but was reciprocated with a slap on the face? I am thoroughly pissed with my students who still think they can pass their PSLE at the rate they are going. I offered my help but what do I get? Denials and an atittude to match their relek one corner face!
Anyway, I have been in bed the whole day. I can't even be bothered to get my lunch. I watched Oprah today about Women in their 30s. That's me! She interviewed a few ladies like a Muslim lady who faces racism threats, single ladies and of course one that really hits home was this lady that goes by the name of Jenna. Her inability to get pregnant frustrates and depresses her till today. She spent thousands of dollars on fertility programs and when she got pregnant, at 11 weeks, her baby's heartbeat stopped. It was really sad to see her feeling so helpless. Coincidentally she's 31 and she's a teacher. She says, everywhere she goes, she is reminded of what motherhood meant to every women's life. She truly wants to be a mom and so do I. I look forward to a life of a complete family. I envision myself with Najib and my twins and also a few more in this home. Life might be tight but I know we will all make it through. Insya ALLAH.
Ya Allah, kurniakan hambamu ini keluarga yang sempurna. Aku dan suamiku terlalu inginkan zuriat-zuriat yang terbaik, sesungguhnya hanya Engkau sahaja yang dapat mengabulkan permintaan hambamu ini.
Amin.
Anyway, I have been in bed the whole day. I can't even be bothered to get my lunch. I watched Oprah today about Women in their 30s. That's me! She interviewed a few ladies like a Muslim lady who faces racism threats, single ladies and of course one that really hits home was this lady that goes by the name of Jenna. Her inability to get pregnant frustrates and depresses her till today. She spent thousands of dollars on fertility programs and when she got pregnant, at 11 weeks, her baby's heartbeat stopped. It was really sad to see her feeling so helpless. Coincidentally she's 31 and she's a teacher. She says, everywhere she goes, she is reminded of what motherhood meant to every women's life. She truly wants to be a mom and so do I. I look forward to a life of a complete family. I envision myself with Najib and my twins and also a few more in this home. Life might be tight but I know we will all make it through. Insya ALLAH.
Ya Allah, kurniakan hambamu ini keluarga yang sempurna. Aku dan suamiku terlalu inginkan zuriat-zuriat yang terbaik, sesungguhnya hanya Engkau sahaja yang dapat mengabulkan permintaan hambamu ini.
Amin.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Nothing can make me frown today...one of my happiest days in my whole entire life...I had to tell my parents, my siblings and also my gd fren!
No details yet...soon insya ALLAH...
Btw my depressing and sorrowful days are beginning to see the light of a brand new exciting life!
No details yet...soon insya ALLAH...
Btw my depressing and sorrowful days are beginning to see the light of a brand new exciting life!
Friday, July 13, 2007
my kids have been bugging me to put up their photos...so here it is!
It was the TOK SELAMPIT competition where my student, Md Saiful presented his story of Pak Kaduk . It was such a pleasant surprise when we were informed he got into the finals...I was hoping for it...but didn't want to stress him...and during the finals, he clinched the fourth position. WELL DONE! U made us proud indeed!
Well Saiful, it ain't over yet! The next one will be this coming Sat k...do ur best! I am sure you can make us proud again!!!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
People have been asking me to update my posts, truth is...I have no time to even read my daily dose of New Paper! I check emails in school while eating the very muak Nasi Lemak from the school's so-called cafe! *sighs* What a life I lead these days!
Running from school to home to errands...I don't even have time to visit my parents who is just like 4 mins away. Every night is a torture with my thoughts on the work ahead awaiting for me the next day. I don't remember any of my dreams anymore. I am just so exhausted with all this work-related expectations. The last time I put my head down to slumberland and had a sweet dream was like few weeks back. I could still remember that dream vividly... a + sign on Clearblue! I remembered waking up with a wide grin and straight to the toilet. It was a false alarm! One of these days, when I really get a + sign on the kit, I'm going to break down and cry on the toilet bowl. Something that I really really wanted for a long long long time! Many people have been comforting me and supporting me and I really appreciate it...but my mind is 24/7 on this wish and there's nothing much any1 can do...I broke down one night feigning pain in my tummy. Najib was concerned and kept by my side the whole night. But truth is ...I am really scared...I want this so much...look at me now...I'm bawling already!
will continue the next time...I can't do it now...
Running from school to home to errands...I don't even have time to visit my parents who is just like 4 mins away. Every night is a torture with my thoughts on the work ahead awaiting for me the next day. I don't remember any of my dreams anymore. I am just so exhausted with all this work-related expectations. The last time I put my head down to slumberland and had a sweet dream was like few weeks back. I could still remember that dream vividly... a + sign on Clearblue! I remembered waking up with a wide grin and straight to the toilet. It was a false alarm! One of these days, when I really get a + sign on the kit, I'm going to break down and cry on the toilet bowl. Something that I really really wanted for a long long long time! Many people have been comforting me and supporting me and I really appreciate it...but my mind is 24/7 on this wish and there's nothing much any1 can do...I broke down one night feigning pain in my tummy. Najib was concerned and kept by my side the whole night. But truth is ...I am really scared...I want this so much...look at me now...I'm bawling already!
will continue the next time...I can't do it now...
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