Friday, November 17, 2006

Will you miss me when you leave?
no...

It was heartbreaking to hear that from someone I have showered my love and attention to. I was taken aback actually... After years of relationship like a child and a mother, it all boils down to today.

As at 12.30pm, my responsibility towards my children of 2006 ended.

Yes we cried like babies...I still do...even now when I am typing this...
I will miss them so so so so much. I will miss my P6 this year. I don't know how school will be like without them. Whenever I think of them leaving me...a wave of emptiness and longing overcomes me...

The end of our bond is here.

My race is nearly run.

My work for you is done.

I whispered words of farewell and waved goodbye.

I grabbed your hand and pulled you close...I love you guys!

I would have tried to say 'please stay' but deep in my heart, I knew it was impossible.

I will not lie, you guys have touched my life and soul in so many ways.

We have been together for so long that i can't see myself without you.

I've argued with myself wondering as to why I feel the way I do.

Why?

I don't have the answers too.

I've cried too many tears...over you. I've walked a thousand miles by your side.
This is how it will end,
This is how I will say Goodbye.
I pushed you away from me.
and this is how it's going to end.
I am done.

Ya ALLAH, Engkau maha Besar dan maha mengetahui...
Berkatilah kehidupan mereka, selamatkanlah mereka, berikanlah mereka kejayaan.
Kusyukuri padaMu Ya Allah di atas anugerahMu ini
Kusyukuri padaMu Ya Rahiim di atas kurniaan ini
Kusyukuri padaMu Ya Karim di atas kekuatan ikatan ini
Terima kasih Ya Allah kerana telah menciptakan mereka dan mempertemukan aku dengan insan-insan istimewa ini.
Terima kasih Ya Allah untuk saat-saat indah yang dapat kami nikmati bersama.

Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan ketabahan...
Aku pasrah dengan kehendakMu.

Ya ALLAH...Thank you.