<..: Retreat II :..>

b4 I start...do read my disclaimer...
I admit I am a person who laments and complains...well
what is my blog for?
It's my own personal space ...I vent my frustrations and share my joy with the world... so people out there who thinks reading my blog is a waste of time ...SCRAM!
I did not invite you here in the first place!
If u care to read, then shut your trap and just read on!

This week has been really hectic. People who crosses my path has been putting a strain on me. Let's start with our driver! A conman...by the name of Eddie. That will be the last time. I am still frustrated with his dealing with my family. I say..NO1 can ever swindle or dupe MY FAMILY. If any1 does that...I'll make sure I'll destroy them! I am now contemplating to write to ICA and makes sure this devil will be sumbat to jail...

Next...the same group of people who has broken my heart again and again. This year has made me realise a few things. I am just too accomodating to some people. It's never been me to shame a person. But, I guess I have to take the last resort. Gonna call parents and start deciding the next course of action. I LOVE YOU? HAHAHAHAHAHA...u don't even know the real meaning of love! Tomorrow, I'll make sure they know what love is all about! I am just darn pissed with YOU! I am just so dumb to believe in u and this has got to happen. If u choose to leave...go!!! GET OUT OF MY FACE!
I have suffered enough with all this crap!

Next...I am not well not because I choose to...There is no need to insinuate and pass unwanted remarks! "Awak boleh buat tak? Nanti awak stress pulak!" Those words stung! Do u think I choose to have high blood pressure?Do u think I choose to fall sick? If u think I do...you have certainly violated the takdir of ALLAH! What I have is not what I want and what I have is all because of U people!

IT IS NOT A GOOD WEEK! I AM VEXED BY ALL THIS!
I THINK I HAVE CHOSEN THE WRONG CAREER PATH!
I THINK I HAVE SOWN THE WRONG SEEDS OF COMMITMENT TO IDIOTIC PEOPLE!
I THINK I HAVE BEEN TOO NICE TO ACCOMODATE YOU GUYS!
I THINK ...it's TIME!

I AM SURE I WANT A HAPPY AND FULFILLING LIFE.
I GOT WHAT I WANTED FROM MY FAMILY.
NOW IT'S TIME...

EITHER I END UP IN IMH FOR BEING TOO COMMITTED TO THE PROFESSION...
OR I END UP DEAD IN MY CLASSROOM ...

I DON'T WANT THAT!

IT'S TIME I SHOULD THINK ABOUT QUITTING...
IT'S TIME I SHOULD CHANNEL MY ENERGY TO MY LIFE...
MY LOVED ONES ...

I LOVE TEACHING...
BUT IT'S NOT DOING ANYTHING GOOD TO ME...
IT'S HARMING ME IN MANY WAYS AND ...

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT...
HOW IT BROKE MY HEART
IF I STAY JUST A BIT LONGER...
I'LL BE BANISHED IN MY OWN CELL

I WANT MY LIFE! GIVE ME BACK MY LIFE!

Thursday, November 02, 2006